This morning I have been bouncing between a million things:
— scanning artwork
— writing this week's to-dos
— learning Chinese
— cleaning my space
— watching videos
Bouncing back and forth between these as my mind shifts... quickly shifts. I even pulled up my website to begin writing this! I typed out the title, sat for a moment, and then got distracted by the video that was playing directly into my head through my headphones.
I have always shifted between tasks, every since I was a kid.
But in beginning titling this and then not having the focus to write even a sentence towards my thoughts, I realized I was (and often am) too distracted to focus on much of anything right now. Work has been very busy the last few months, often to the point that I wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, and crash in bed soon after. This is an excuse I've had to allow myself to procrastinate and put just about all of my creative endeavors on the back burner.
That is changing now.
My work schedule will slow down bit by bit as the year ends, which will allow me no more 'working too much' excuses to tell myself.
I truthfully have not spent time in my studio for about a month now.
It needs a revival. A reorganization. A habit re-formed.
Youtube decided that I needed to see some videos on writing recently. One of the people mentioned that he began writing articles and blogs not because he particularly enjoyed writing, or had a lot to write about, but because in writing often, he could expand upon his thoughts. He could keep his dreams and ambitions closer to the front of mind.
This reason for writing stuck with me.
And so here I am, a couple hours after beginning this article, finally sitting down with focused intention and attention. Headphones are still on, but they are only playing focusing music/sounds. No vlogs, no podcasts, no words.
Time to harness these qualities through all that I want to get done today.
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